My Reality Has Rules and Morals I Follow

*Life if not a dream. But, I have experienced and survived enough nightmares a 1000 average people are lucky to never know. And I do not plan to force myself through one more nightmare. I am only headed towards positive life experiences.


*Speaking of positives, my psychologist from college helped me train my brain to find a positive in ANY (even the hopeless) situations. Thus, I am always trying to be and stay positive. I hate the negative: energy, talk, actions, thoughts, etc. (And my body and energy filter in negative around me.)


*I am blunt/honest (almost too blunt and honest for my own good); when I trust someone - they EARNED it with blood, sweat, and tears (please excuse the cliche). So, trust is not immediate. I have tortured myself and suffered too much to just give away my trust.


*I do not believe something is impossible. There is a solution to EVERY problem. It just takes creative thinking.


*I am very loyal. But loyalty also takes earning, but until then, I am loyal according to "normal" standards. My idea of loyalty exceeds the norm ten fold.


*I have a need to complicate everything. Even the simplest things. I prefer complicated. Simple is boring.


*Me and boredom are not friends, I have a knack for keeping myself from becoming bored. Possible causes of boredom: routine, the dull/mundane, "normal," and simple.


*I do not believe in the words: forever, I promise, and I'm sorry. These words were ruined mainly by drug addicts sprinkled throughout my life and NO, they weren't all boyfriends. They came in the forms of ONE boyfriend, close friends, and more than one family member.


*I like me and don't care if other people like me. I still get to spend time with me, so it is their loss. Yeah, I am a confident person.


*It is a bad idea to underestimate me all together. But it is a VERY VERY BAD idea to underestimate my intelligence.


*I will be the first to admit when I am wrong and I am well aware of my personality flaws.


*I am very strong willed, independent, I do not fold under pressure, and I need to figure things out for myself and that works out best. Because I need to reinvent my own way of doing something anyway.


I never know where this piece (my writing I am posting) will take me until I start writing. Looks like what the scattered hand went scribbling onto the page next is about the beliefs in my reality. Although, I know these aren't all my morals and rules.

-xoxo

What I Can Promise

*I don't do normal. It causes unhappiness. Unhappiness then leads to depression, boredom, and a TON  of other aggravations.
*I am a pain in the ass.
*I will have moments when I am crying and you may believe I am crying for no reason and most likely I am. But depression hurts, a lot sometimes. So understand at these moments I am most delicate and will need your support.
*I will always surprise you. Mainly good surprises, but every once in awhile it might be a bad surprise. (I can only get as close to perfect as am, just kidding.)
*I am an artist, in well; every shape, form, mood, eccentricity, etc. But this also means I always have a creative solution.
*I am one of a kind. There is only one me and there will never be another me.
*My favorite, strongest, and most beautiful artistic ability is writing. I am a wordsmith. And the answer is yes, I will dissect every and all words that are said, written, thought, or hanging around. So, think before using the wrong word because the wrong word could cause problems. Well, it probably depends on my rationality at the given moment.
*I love making, creating, cooking, anything that is going to have a beautiful outcome in this clammy world.
*I hate money. Don't ever think or worry I am or will become materialistic.

I ended my promises to James here. This is when my mind took a detour into the details about myself. My mind started confusing promises with this idea that he had to understand me. Rationally, I knew it was dumb to move in with this guy. Yet, the only person who could have changed my mind was James changing his mind. I suppose now that I finished the promising and reached the subject of ME! I won't have to worry about the formatting of this blog again!

oh, there should be a link to a sun kil moon video - everybody needs to have sun kil moon in thier life!

*xoxo